white hair

David came to my seat & said sth, baba..baba...then he told me I had white hair...quite many......
the most hurrible thing I hate...white hair. I asked him to help me to cut it, but he refused. I hate it very very much. It tells me I grow older & older, my health becomes weaker & weaker.

Jesus, please hel pme to overcome the difficult time I face now---my health problem & my wedding arrangement. I hope to marry Ivan with healthy & beauty.

I know Ivan won't refuse to marry me even I am weak. But I find myself too weak to be his wife. Weak in body, and even weak in soul.
當我每天吃藥，一天比一天消瘦，每當患處隱隱作痛時，我便會開始擔心，開始憂慮，開始自我放棄...有時意志好強，有意志軟弱，有時發音大笑，有時不禁流淚，開始自我在困苦中打轉...